As the new year arrives my fellow PGY-2 reminds me that there is only 545 days left till the end of residency. This seems like a long time but when you have been dreaming to become a doctor since you were the age of 7, it really is right around the corner. As the countdown continues & I begin to think about what type of life I would like after this residency I think I have come to the conclusion that I have no plans of obtaining a fellowship afterwards. It is not that I don’t have any interest in the other fields but that I just don’t want to continue NOT being a full fledged physician any longer. I think part of it is the financial considerations being that I can go to making 4-5x as much money after my last year of residency which is pretty tough to pass up but a lot has to do with the fact that I am just tired being in the training stage as a doctor. Whether it’s the administration from the hospital or our graduate medical education office I am just about done with this whole process. I think it’s a natural maturation process because when I talk to other residents from different programs & fields they hark the same thing.
Just last month I was reminded by a patient’s family member this fact when she refused to speak to me or any “training” doctor, even though I was the only one taking care of their family member that mattered. Imagine after spending countless hours studying as an undergrad & medical student to get to this point only to hear an ungrateful family member tell you this. And of course these run ins are few & far between but when I do find them I tell myself that it is almost over. As I am going into the new year I only hope to continue to strive to be the best physician I can be. Over the next year I will be doing less medicine rotations & more specialty rotations so who knows maybe next year I will be posting about my acceptance into a fellowship somewhere & this rant will be an after thought.
Happy New Years!!!